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ellis ginsberg. ([personal profile] heorte) wrote2021-03-06 07:30 pm

when i go towards you it is with my whole life.







You came to the side of the bed
and sat staring at me.
Then you kissed me—I felt
hot wax on my forehead.
I wanted it to leave a mark:
that’s how I knew I loved you.
Because I wanted to be burned, stamped,
to have something in the end—
I drew the gown over my head;
a red flush covered my face and shoulders.
It will run its course, the course of fire,
setting a cold coin on the forehead, between the eyes.
You lay beside me; your hand moved over my face
as though you had felt it also-
you must have known, then, how I wanted you.
We will always know that, you and I.
The proof will be my body.
— louise glück
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cant believe dw hid this from me

[personal profile] heirring 2021-08-14 01:15 am (UTC)(link)
The splintering of the room's contents about her prompts a flinch, a mindless throwing up of her arms to protect her head and maybe some sharp sound of distress as a thrashing limb crashes before her, bringing down shelves and dozens of books after it. To say that she ducks and weaves to avoid the assault would be to give Wysteria more credit than she is truly due—it implies some sense of strategy, where in reality she has none. Luck is not the same thing is good sense or practiced instinct as she stumbles half blind and fully desperate through the unlit library without any real sense of where the spirit is manifesting, and only the memory of where the door had lain, and hardly any grasp at all as to the state of—

"Ellis! You must come away from it!" A book is snatched blindly from the nearest shelf and chucked with force at the deepest miasmic point of shadow at the room's dreadful center. Arcane energy thrills over the receipt.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-08-16 01:37 am (UTC)(link)
In the dark on dark, with the glowstones scattered and lost, there is nothing at all reassuring about his assertion. But what is there to be done?

Wysteria flings another book at the writhing mass of tendrils, and then— "I'm going then!"

And she does, ducking another lashing of dark tendrils and fumbling through the uneven terrain of scattered books and splintered shelving and the warped moss slick floor until she reaches the doorway.

And slams into the closed door, briefly baffled. She tries the latch and only once she discovers that it's stuck does Wysteria realize the wrongness of the door's alignment. Hadn't it been open? Why would they have closed the doors behind them?
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-08-23 06:41 am (UTC)(link)
"I don't know!" Is cried back, alarm flashing brilliant and dreadful in the sound of it. She can hear it in her own voice—that unrestrained bolt of fear that runs through, "It won't open!" as the latch rattles uselessly in her grip. She throws her shoulder against the door again. The thump of it is lost to the destructive cacophony.

Why hasn't the spirit at the room's center collapsed yet? Why hasn't Ellis killed it yet? It's going to devour them in this ridiculous little room and it will be her fault for being so eager to be foolish.

There is the hot prick of frustrated and terrified tears both, and the crack of some shattering plaster, and it's only when she throws herself against the door a third time to no real effect that it occurs to her that she's learned nothing at all from the entirety of the afternoon. That she is being ridiculous. That Ellis will be the person to suffer for it if she isn't quick about it.

She releases the door handle and levers her hand at the door. An instant later, in a bright shock of nauseating green light and force and the liquid heat fade tang of ozone, the heavy wood snaps free of its hinges and crashes outward into the corridor beyond.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-08-28 10:35 pm (UTC)(link)
She has indeed made it into the hall, for let no one say that Wysteria Poppell is not capable of being at least fractionally sensible in times of great stress. She has not, over the course of service for Riftwatch, hidden under tables while various parties descended into assassinating chaos around her out of cowardice. These are merely rational acts. For why should she not do as directed in this? Ellis tells her to Go and she does. In moments such as these, he has never given her cause to disobey him.

(And she is frightened; terrified of that dreadful thing which lives in that pitch darkness; of that fact that she in part summoned it; of what will happen should it follow after them—)

The crash of plate is very loud.

In the room, those myriad limbs take full advantage of Ellis' newly prone position. They lash after him, felling hard against his plate with such shockingly powerful impact that it's a blessing he has fallen forward rather than back and receives the blows across the sturdiest sections of his armor. Still, the hammering impacts are heavy enough to compress, to dent, to mangle as yet more limbs dredge the spirit's main form forward from the rotted library's center. If it's multitude of limbs are whip quick, this part proceeds with all the elasticity of a weeping, tumorous growth. Something to be levered and pried and pulled along by its grasping tendrils. What doesn't beat Ellis finds some murdering grip at first one heavy boot and then an arm or his mace, avaricious as it is unintelligent with mad fury.

(Maybe that's what it is: rage. The kind that consumes. The kind that curses. The kind that begets the most insidious kinds of pain; which lurks in dark places and grows like a cancerous thing, its numerous wretched branches insinuating itself in all directions.)

With a screech of armor and warped floorboards, it drags him nearer.

The crack of Fade energy is loud like a thunderclap. Or like something being ripped open. Or the sudden rush of air to fill a space which once was occupied. The acid green flash briefly illuminates the whole of the room, searing the dark outlines of the creature at its center on the eye. It recoils from the concussive force of Wysteria's anchor with a twisting metal shriek.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-08-30 03:47 am (UTC)(link)
Again! he says, and this work has always been more demanding than it appears. It requires gathering her thoughts. The conscious focus of direction. Tapping into something which sends the sensation of hot fire up the length of her arm and into her shoulder and to the very core of her. Yet Ellis has hardly gotten as far as Do that again! when the consecutive burst of concusses free of Wysteria's extended hand in an explosive discharge of veilfire.

The spirit recoils. It makes the sound of a thousand mirrors shattering, or like the point of a knife shrieking across the face of a glass (or a stone). Just inside the doorway of that pitch dark room, Wysteria wavers.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-08-30 06:22 am (UTC)(link)
In a clatter of plate and to the thump of her much worn field boots and her hammering pulse and the crackle of somethign giving to pressure at their heels, they rush from the corridor. There is no time to find the grip at her elbow reassuring, but it does the job it most desperately needs to do: keeps her on her feet and moving and centers her in a world which has begun to go nauseatingly crooked about her.

(This is the most she's used the anchor in a single day, much less a single hour.)

They reach the staircase landing. They careen down the stairs. They have not quite reached the ground floor when, with an ear splitting shriek and an ominous descending darkness, the burbling form of the unleashed spirit bursts free from the upper level's corridor. Its thrashing limbs reach onto the railing, dragging its heaving shape toward it with a single minded ferocity. Spirits have no use for stairs; there is nothing to stop it from prying itself to the rail and over it. In a few seconds, it will come crashing down into that once grand foyer and if they fail to cover the ground now then it will be between them and the main door.
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denise heard us talkin shit

[personal profile] heirring 2021-08-30 07:50 pm (UTC)(link)
She is easy to find, having staggered through the main doors and just catching herself on the lip of some cracked old decorative planter worn to a nearly indistinguishable lump by time and weather. Pale though she is from either exertion or terror, Wysteria is shockingly quick to straighten out of her full body flinch in response to the crackle of the barrier and twist back toward the sound of his voice.

For a moment she stands framed in the doorway in something near to uncomprehending silence as the roiling form of the spirit crashes repeatedly against the barrier.

"Oh, but—" Their things, is a nonsensical point of contention. With a jerk, she separates herself from the idea and moves to help shift shut one of the heavy doors.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-08-30 08:27 pm (UTC)(link)
"Can you?"

As a reply, it could easily be an indictment—some defensive reflex along the lines of Yes, of course she can ride. But there is some anxious, high thing in it, the outline of a shape preparing to crumple in on itself: worry, the brief flash fire flicker of guilt. If she hadn't been so stupid as to insisted on being so very clever—

Beyond the door, the sounds of that terrible thing have yet to abate.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-08-31 07:28 am (UTC)(link)
If there is some line of questioning she might pursue—the wretched shape that his plate is in, perhaps, or how exactly he plans to get his leg high enough to get his foot in the stirrup—, then it is reserved in favor of drawing away from the shuddering door. From the veranda. From the overgrown drive, choked thigh with sapling trees and thick underbrush. He is upright. He is well enough. It seems mad to insist on lingering here any longer than necessary.

It's fully dark by the time they have wind their way back toward the fringe of the little village in the valley. They are drawn in by the first light glowing in a window, and though Wysteria has mentally prepared some thing to say it turns out to be unnecessary. Evidently they look dreadful enough to inspire immediate hospitality from the carpenter they find in the little house here at the very edge of the wood, or Ellis' armor warrants just enough respect, or, or, or—

What does it matter?

The floor of the workshop is sawdust. They're given two blankets and a lantern. Is it better than camping in the cold? She doesn't know. But it feels more secure to have four proper walls and a roof overhead, to have a little flame burning very low in the wood fire stove, and to have a door which may be neatly barricaded with a bench drawn out from under one the work tables.

"I think I'll have to cut this one," is frustrated, something bristling at the edge of her voice like temper or the threat of tears or both. The first two buckles on this side of his armor had come undone easily enough. This one is being pulled taut enough by the dent of the plate that there's little to no give. No flexibility whatsoever to uncinch it with.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-08-31 11:39 pm (UTC)(link)
There is a little working knife in her belt which her hand moves directly to, and then she decides that's absurd. That the last thing they need is for her hand to slip on some toughened leather and so stab him between the woods. So—

"Very well," she snaps, batting his hands away with the impatient cruelty of the distressed so that she can remove herself to go clattering through the various pins and hooks of the dimly lit carpentry shop until she at last produces a remarkably heavy pair of shears from some sticky drawer.

"You must release all your breath," she informs him strictly once she has returned to pull this way and that on the dented plate in an effort to work the shears' blade between the drawn taut leather and his side. "And then hold it that way until I can—Raise your elbow higher—Yes, there—just—cut this—"

It requires both her hands to induce the shears to creak closed through the strap.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-09-01 12:44 am (UTC)(link)
There is something in the shape of it that she can barely hear but can clearly detect that catches her short. It prompts a flickering look up into his face.

"Yes, all right." She quickly shifts over to inspect the other side of the cuirass. "Once more. Just—yes, breathe out if you please."

It shouldn't feel so much like a desperate thing, but it seems so very important to pry him free of the armor shell quickly that she is a little clumsy with the shears. What if he's broken something? What if a rib has punched through something? What if the armor is what's keeping everything tentatively in order now, and stripping it from him is going to— Snip, goes leather. Snip, goes an errant triangle of the gambeson's topmost layer of fabric.

"There. There, it's finished."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-09-01 02:45 am (UTC)(link)
Alright, he says, but she as opinions on the subject even as he sags gently forward and makes to catch his breath. One hand, he is permitted. The other Wysteria immediately puts to work fussing at the neck and shoulder of Ellis' gambeson—not undoing anything (for she would need two hands for that), but fleeting after the idea of doing so while she says, "I should have said something before we road all this way. We might have stopped anywhere in the wood and seen this done earlier. You will have to take this off so we can be sure nothing is too poorly off. Oh, there is blood here."

Here is somewhere in the dark curls of his hair behind his ear. Some incidental graze of splinters, or from when he'd been knocked from his feet perhaps? It's dry now and crunches under the probe of her fingertips.

She draws back. It's not by much. Only the narrowest little thing so she might look him in the face.

"I would strongly suggest that you sit down now."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-09-01 03:41 am (UTC)(link)
It was that silence which had been so terrible as they'd made their way through the overgrown wood. And the dread which has lived in its wake—a palpable fear that if she induced him to break it, what she would find would be some awful thing to legitimize the hand of guilt currently around her heart and threatening to crush it. He might be injured. Worse, he might feel the impulse to agree with her: that this is all her doing.

Standing still, above him now as Ellis has sloughed to sit in the sawdust, she first nods wordlessly and then—realizing how ridiculous it is to give a man who isn't looking at her a silent reply—clears her throat and says, "Yes. Perfectly well."

She needn't cling to anything to remain upright any longer anyway.

"Here. Let me fetch you some water from what was left with the horses." Meaning, the tiny assembly of saddle bags and the single waterskin which had stayed with the animals while they'd ventured into that seemingly benign place. She is quick to fetch it, and careful about kneeling down beside him in the sawdust so that he needn't raise his arm too high to have the skin passed to him.

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