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ellis ginsberg. ([personal profile] heorte) wrote2021-03-06 07:30 pm

when i go towards you it is with my whole life.







You came to the side of the bed
and sat staring at me.
Then you kissed me—I felt
hot wax on my forehead.
I wanted it to leave a mark:
that’s how I knew I loved you.
Because I wanted to be burned, stamped,
to have something in the end—
I drew the gown over my head;
a red flush covered my face and shoulders.
It will run its course, the course of fire,
setting a cold coin on the forehead, between the eyes.
You lay beside me; your hand moved over my face
as though you had felt it also-
you must have known, then, how I wanted you.
We will always know that, you and I.
The proof will be my body.
— louise glück
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-02 07:03 am (UTC)(link)
The way she instantly brightens and then shutters it suggests something has come immediately to mind. In an effort conceal it, Wysteria adopts a strictly cool demeanor and tips up her chin so she might imperiously reply, "That will be sufficient, yes. So long as my other earlier demands are indeed also guaranteed, of course."

The cold fixture of her expression slips just a little, corner of her mouth twitching toward a laugh that she channels instead squeezing his hand as they integrate themselves into the new set of dancers on the floor.

She will only have another drink or two, Wysteria decides, as she must keep her wits about her and make the most use of this leverage he has gifted her.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-03 05:05 am (UTC)(link)
Another indeed, and this too is a boisterous loping thing though they're never required by it to separate—merely to romp between and about the other partners on the floor in a more or less predictable pattern that is simple, she suspects, entirely to encourage a kind of reckless speed. She holds on to him almost for dear life, actually flush now from the effort as they whirl about to the encouraging shriek of the fiddle and a whistle or two from the sidelines. It makes her laugh, first just once and then a great, bright flashing peal of it which rises and falls breathlessly but never fully stops.

No, when they return to their lodgings she will almost certainly prosecute him to the full extent of her abilities.

When the song ends—punctuated by a fiddle flourish and an excitable drumroll—only to immediate transition into yet another rollicking song, Wysteria groans in good natured defeat.

"You know, I suspect it might be the only pace at which they know how to play."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-04 05:29 am (UTC)(link)
Wysteria is indeed waiting as directed, tucked in by the wall just inside the open barn doors. She is standing with her hands folded at the small of her back, catching her breath in the warm glow of the high lamplight. She is yet a little flush, especially pink in comparison to the robin's egg blue of her bodice and the cream of her high collared shirt, and she is not alone.

In the minutes it's taken Ellis to fetch a pair of drinks, some sandy haired young man who must be—if the cut of his coat is any indication—a student has engaged her in conversation. They are chattering along, in good spirits. He says something. She laughs, bright as a bell and—

"Oh Mister Ellis!" She sways forward, extending a hand as if to draw him in with it. "Serrah Walden was just complimenting our turn on the dance floor. Isn't that right?"

Serrah Walden, who is slightly narrow in every direction but quite tall to make up for it, lifts his cup and after a moment smiles politely in greeting. "So I was."

Wysteria takes the cup of beer with cheery thanks, and takes an appreciative drink from it.

"Mister Walden was saying he is a rather poor dancer himself, and that he always desired to learn otherwise. Shall I lend you my Mister Ellis, sir? He is a perfectly fit teacher."

They laugh again then, Walden's wandering eye clearly in pursuit of an exit strategy.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-05 04:37 am (UTC)(link)
"Water," she scoffs, all good cheer as she takes another sip from the beer.

"I wouldn't dare impose on your lady's generosity then," Walden insists. The man has a charming smile, quick and lopsided. His attention flicks from Ellis to Wysteria— "Though should your Mister Ellis tire and you find yourself at loose ends..."

He smile flexes, almost apologetic. Wysteria, stood in very close to Ellis' elbow (or vice versa) laughs in reply.

"I will take it under consideration, sir. But it is quite against his character. Isn't that so, Mister Ellis?"

She tips her face up to him, the line of her mouth quirking wide.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-06 04:30 am (UTC)(link)
Something in her face flickers, a very brief pinch of her brow that forms and is gone again as quickly as it first appeared. And then she turns her attention back to the rather tall Mister Walden, all smiling and good cheer.

"As the gentleman said. I will fetch you should I find myself without a partner, sir."

She takes a drink of beer all but through her smiling teeth. And in reply Mister Walden flicks a glance between them, adopts his most courteous smile and tips his head. He must be a clever kind, to recognize both a dismissal and an opening so long as he doesn't press.

"Of course. I'll be just there loitering should you need me. Miss Poppell." He nods to Ellis. "Mister Ellis."

And then Mister Walden, he of superior height, is gone. Wysteria's smile lingers for a half beat before being ruthlessly stripped away. She looks to Ellis, something fiery in the point of her attention.

"Really, Mister Ellis."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-07 03:42 am (UTC)(link)
"Don't you raise those eyebrows at me. How dare you make me seem so undefended." There is a certain waggishness in it, and to the small way she turns her wrist from his drifting to fingers so she might turn and give his knuckles a little slap. But neither is she fully joking, if the tell tale wrinkle at the corner of her mouth is any indication.

She takes a swig from her cup, shooting a glance in the general direction which Mister Walden had disappeared in, and then pivots back toward Ellis with the faintest realignment of the angle of her shoulders.

"Never mind it. I know you meant nothing by it. Or that it is only a difference between Thedas and other places."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-07 04:19 am (UTC)(link)
She opens her mouth, breathes in a hitch of air to answer immediately--then pauses, her gaze flitting away and then down into her cup. It's a split second of indecision. Would she have been?

"Well." Maybe. she might have bristled just a little. But perhaps only in the moment. "I hardly expect you to drop everything to drag the man out and fight him in the yard. But a firm word," she resolves. "No, I don't believe that would have been amiss. Unless you truly have no preference on the subject."

She glances back up at him and frowns to cover some spark of embarrassment.

"But I should hope that you do."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-08 12:29 am (UTC)(link)
She scoffs. But for all that it is a loud, skeptical sound and despite the distinct roll of her eyes as she shifts her attention from him back toward the dance floor, it's clear that he's said the right thing. That she's pleased. No matter that she says, "Really, Mister Ellis. You are quite ridiculous."

With a secondary prim sniff, she drinks further from her cup.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-08 04:38 am (UTC)(link)
"I believe all artists can be bribed, Mister Ellis. It is the mark of their trade," she says, settling close against the wall. The clatter of the drum and the stamping of feet across the dance floor is very loud. A woman out there is laughing in the arms of her partner, her dark hair loose and flowing prettily behind her as she's run round.

"The question is only how high their price is, and how many people before you had the idea and have beaten you to making requests."

Wysteria looks to him, holds his gaze for a moment, and then pointedly drops her attention to where she has tucked her spare hand between the small of her back and the wall. Her fingertips are just there, waggling invitingly. Well. If he should care to touch her hand, there are ways to be discreet—

And then her attention drifts back toward the dance floor, the assembly in the hall, and musicians and the dust drifting down from the rafters.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-08 05:27 am (UTC)(link)
The moment his hand is touching hers, Wysteria delicately shifts her arm to gently close her fingers about his wrist. It is an easy thing, then, to draw his hand safely behind her into that secret unseen place between herself at the wall.

"That is because Bastien is remarkably weak for all things that have even the veneer of romance. I wouldn't be surprised if he had a great collection of cheap novels on the subject. --Oh," she says, as if the following thought is only in this moment occurring to her. She laughs. "I hope that's what he used to print with his press. That would be very charming. And a little funny. Anyway, you can hardly be blamed for falling behind. Who could have guessed that Markham has such an aversion to anything slower than the pace of a sprint."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-08 06:56 pm (UTC)(link)
"I truly don't remember. We spent most of the evening at one of the tables out of doors arguing over some mathematics. Dancing had very little to do with the conversation at all. We will have to ask Brown when we see him," she decides, attention fixed toward the center of the room and the spiraling patterns of the dance happening there like a counterweight to the quiet sprawl of Ellis's hand.

Her own hand has shifted too, settling lightly against his. The angle is not wholly natural, and so the absent scuff of her thumb along the joint of one of his forefingers is light but not unintentional.

"But if it is going to be like this all evening, I'm not sure I've really the energy for it. We were up at such an early hour."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-08 08:25 pm (UTC)(link)
She finishes her drink before answering, turning her attention from the center of the room back on him—all wide eyed faux guilelessness.

"Are you?"
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-08 08:57 pm (UTC)(link)
There is a multitude of small buttons down the back of her dress. Which is technically speaking an unimportant and highly irrelevant detail, save for the fact that she thinks of them in relation to the drift of his thumb and feels an immediate flicker of something like guilt behind her ribs. So she puts them promptly out of her mind and says instead, all airily and untroubled by anything at all in the entire world,

"Well, it sounds as if you've decided. I shall hardly argue with you, Mister Ellis. We've nearly a whole week of evenings to fill before us. I imagine there will be other opportunities for all sorts of dancing."

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picks this icon, lols

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thanks im an artiste

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