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ellis ginsberg. ([personal profile] heorte) wrote2021-03-06 07:30 pm

when i go towards you it is with my whole life.







You came to the side of the bed
and sat staring at me.
Then you kissed me—I felt
hot wax on my forehead.
I wanted it to leave a mark:
that’s how I knew I loved you.
Because I wanted to be burned, stamped,
to have something in the end—
I drew the gown over my head;
a red flush covered my face and shoulders.
It will run its course, the course of fire,
setting a cold coin on the forehead, between the eyes.
You lay beside me; your hand moved over my face
as though you had felt it also-
you must have known, then, how I wanted you.
We will always know that, you and I.
The proof will be my body.
— louise glück
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-03-31 10:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Said in bits and pieces in the snatches of moments where they're close enough to be in contact and to speak over the sound of the rambunctious fiddle and drum while they wind along their various lines—

"I will have to think it over. It is an audaciously bold thing and can't be taken lightly, sir. And you, so pleased with yourself over. I wish you could see your face; your expression is utterly unrepentant. Forgive you," she mutters. Really.

"Maybe I will make you buy me something quite extravagant before we leave Markham. Or demand that you refer to me only by some silly term of endearment, if you're so keen for the whole world to know your business." Adopting a gruff tone in a very poor imitation of him: "'Now my dove, remember to open the vent before experimenting with the caustic soda.'"
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-01 04:44 am (UTC)(link)
She can think of no other time when she might be so sincerely thankful for those moments where their conversation is interrupted. It is so much easier to absorb so much pleasantness when it comes along in drips and drabs, punctuated by a whirl of dancers and clapping hands and stopping feet. If he were to say all of it at once--and in the midst of so many people no less--, her face would go such a sustained shade of scarlet that onlookers might grow concerned she was overexerting herself.

As it is, the flush is kept to a perfectly manageable level. It is no more suspect that one might expect dancing to yield (if the young lady weren't so quite accustomed to vigorous work such as hiking all throughout Kirkwall and the surrounding Free Marches, to say nothing of the many long journeys taken by foot throughout jungle and desert in the name of Riftwatch's work).

She is even level headed enough to reply, quite primly indeed, with "Be that as it may, I choose to hold my forgiveness in reserve Mister Ellis." Breaking apart again to serpentine past the dancers to their immediate rights— "In fact," says insists when they join hands again. "You have this evening done me wrong twice over. First making a scene and now undermining my requests by insisting they've already been guaranteed? It's very bad form, sir."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-02 04:48 am (UTC)(link)
The flash in her eyes following him round must confirm his suspicions all on its own without, "The first I can give no credit at all, Mister Ellis. But you make a fair point with respect to the second. I suppose it is honorable in a very crude sort of way to beg for a more fair punishment if what I've proposed isn't severe enough."

She offers her hand to have it caught, and then they're off—rollicking down the formed column of dancers.

"What do you believe would be more adequate?"
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-02 07:03 am (UTC)(link)
The way she instantly brightens and then shutters it suggests something has come immediately to mind. In an effort conceal it, Wysteria adopts a strictly cool demeanor and tips up her chin so she might imperiously reply, "That will be sufficient, yes. So long as my other earlier demands are indeed also guaranteed, of course."

The cold fixture of her expression slips just a little, corner of her mouth twitching toward a laugh that she channels instead squeezing his hand as they integrate themselves into the new set of dancers on the floor.

She will only have another drink or two, Wysteria decides, as she must keep her wits about her and make the most use of this leverage he has gifted her.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-03 05:05 am (UTC)(link)
Another indeed, and this too is a boisterous loping thing though they're never required by it to separate—merely to romp between and about the other partners on the floor in a more or less predictable pattern that is simple, she suspects, entirely to encourage a kind of reckless speed. She holds on to him almost for dear life, actually flush now from the effort as they whirl about to the encouraging shriek of the fiddle and a whistle or two from the sidelines. It makes her laugh, first just once and then a great, bright flashing peal of it which rises and falls breathlessly but never fully stops.

No, when they return to their lodgings she will almost certainly prosecute him to the full extent of her abilities.

When the song ends—punctuated by a fiddle flourish and an excitable drumroll—only to immediate transition into yet another rollicking song, Wysteria groans in good natured defeat.

"You know, I suspect it might be the only pace at which they know how to play."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-04 05:29 am (UTC)(link)
Wysteria is indeed waiting as directed, tucked in by the wall just inside the open barn doors. She is standing with her hands folded at the small of her back, catching her breath in the warm glow of the high lamplight. She is yet a little flush, especially pink in comparison to the robin's egg blue of her bodice and the cream of her high collared shirt, and she is not alone.

In the minutes it's taken Ellis to fetch a pair of drinks, some sandy haired young man who must be—if the cut of his coat is any indication—a student has engaged her in conversation. They are chattering along, in good spirits. He says something. She laughs, bright as a bell and—

"Oh Mister Ellis!" She sways forward, extending a hand as if to draw him in with it. "Serrah Walden was just complimenting our turn on the dance floor. Isn't that right?"

Serrah Walden, who is slightly narrow in every direction but quite tall to make up for it, lifts his cup and after a moment smiles politely in greeting. "So I was."

Wysteria takes the cup of beer with cheery thanks, and takes an appreciative drink from it.

"Mister Walden was saying he is a rather poor dancer himself, and that he always desired to learn otherwise. Shall I lend you my Mister Ellis, sir? He is a perfectly fit teacher."

They laugh again then, Walden's wandering eye clearly in pursuit of an exit strategy.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-05 04:37 am (UTC)(link)
"Water," she scoffs, all good cheer as she takes another sip from the beer.

"I wouldn't dare impose on your lady's generosity then," Walden insists. The man has a charming smile, quick and lopsided. His attention flicks from Ellis to Wysteria— "Though should your Mister Ellis tire and you find yourself at loose ends..."

He smile flexes, almost apologetic. Wysteria, stood in very close to Ellis' elbow (or vice versa) laughs in reply.

"I will take it under consideration, sir. But it is quite against his character. Isn't that so, Mister Ellis?"

She tips her face up to him, the line of her mouth quirking wide.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-06 04:30 am (UTC)(link)
Something in her face flickers, a very brief pinch of her brow that forms and is gone again as quickly as it first appeared. And then she turns her attention back to the rather tall Mister Walden, all smiling and good cheer.

"As the gentleman said. I will fetch you should I find myself without a partner, sir."

She takes a drink of beer all but through her smiling teeth. And in reply Mister Walden flicks a glance between them, adopts his most courteous smile and tips his head. He must be a clever kind, to recognize both a dismissal and an opening so long as he doesn't press.

"Of course. I'll be just there loitering should you need me. Miss Poppell." He nods to Ellis. "Mister Ellis."

And then Mister Walden, he of superior height, is gone. Wysteria's smile lingers for a half beat before being ruthlessly stripped away. She looks to Ellis, something fiery in the point of her attention.

"Really, Mister Ellis."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-07 03:42 am (UTC)(link)
"Don't you raise those eyebrows at me. How dare you make me seem so undefended." There is a certain waggishness in it, and to the small way she turns her wrist from his drifting to fingers so she might turn and give his knuckles a little slap. But neither is she fully joking, if the tell tale wrinkle at the corner of her mouth is any indication.

She takes a swig from her cup, shooting a glance in the general direction which Mister Walden had disappeared in, and then pivots back toward Ellis with the faintest realignment of the angle of her shoulders.

"Never mind it. I know you meant nothing by it. Or that it is only a difference between Thedas and other places."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-07 04:19 am (UTC)(link)
She opens her mouth, breathes in a hitch of air to answer immediately--then pauses, her gaze flitting away and then down into her cup. It's a split second of indecision. Would she have been?

"Well." Maybe. she might have bristled just a little. But perhaps only in the moment. "I hardly expect you to drop everything to drag the man out and fight him in the yard. But a firm word," she resolves. "No, I don't believe that would have been amiss. Unless you truly have no preference on the subject."

She glances back up at him and frowns to cover some spark of embarrassment.

"But I should hope that you do."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-08 12:29 am (UTC)(link)
She scoffs. But for all that it is a loud, skeptical sound and despite the distinct roll of her eyes as she shifts her attention from him back toward the dance floor, it's clear that he's said the right thing. That she's pleased. No matter that she says, "Really, Mister Ellis. You are quite ridiculous."

With a secondary prim sniff, she drinks further from her cup.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-04-08 04:38 am (UTC)(link)
"I believe all artists can be bribed, Mister Ellis. It is the mark of their trade," she says, settling close against the wall. The clatter of the drum and the stamping of feet across the dance floor is very loud. A woman out there is laughing in the arms of her partner, her dark hair loose and flowing prettily behind her as she's run round.

"The question is only how high their price is, and how many people before you had the idea and have beaten you to making requests."

Wysteria looks to him, holds his gaze for a moment, and then pointedly drops her attention to where she has tucked her spare hand between the small of her back and the wall. Her fingertips are just there, waggling invitingly. Well. If he should care to touch her hand, there are ways to be discreet—

And then her attention drifts back toward the dance floor, the assembly in the hall, and musicians and the dust drifting down from the rafters.

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picks this icon, lols

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thanks im an artiste

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