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ellis ginsberg. ([personal profile] heorte) wrote2021-03-06 07:30 pm

when i go towards you it is with my whole life.







You came to the side of the bed
and sat staring at me.
Then you kissed me—I felt
hot wax on my forehead.
I wanted it to leave a mark:
that’s how I knew I loved you.
Because I wanted to be burned, stamped,
to have something in the end—
I drew the gown over my head;
a red flush covered my face and shoulders.
It will run its course, the course of fire,
setting a cold coin on the forehead, between the eyes.
You lay beside me; your hand moved over my face
as though you had felt it also-
you must have known, then, how I wanted you.
We will always know that, you and I.
The proof will be my body.
— louise glück
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-09-07 05:21 am (UTC)(link)
The dust cloth is allowed to fall back down over the cat fur covered chair. Her attention—

Wavers from his face to his thumb at her wrist, and then back up again. She adopts a smoothly cool look. Without dislodging his hand, the white hair is flicked away.

"I imagine the Lady Paget is one of those women who one might describe as formidable if you were to meet her at some gathering. Why? What is your impression of her?"
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-09-07 10:49 pm (UTC)(link)
"Yes. Although I will say that it seemed to me a very absentminded sort of invitation like the sort of thing one does because they imagine they ought to. I understand that it must be very rare for a Lady to do anything she doesn't expressly wish to do. But out of habit? That is certainly quite possible. 'Lonesome' indeed."

Why yes of course a guest must come to dinner no matter how shabby that guest might be.

(Wysteria tipping her chin up just slightly has nothing to do with habit at all; that is strictly done on purpose.)
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-09-08 12:54 am (UTC)(link)
The tinge of color which had begun to fade flares back again with renewed vigor. She can feel it warming her neck and passing into her face thanks in no small part to the gentle heat of his mouth. When he speaks just there at the skin below the edge of her sleeve's buttoned cuff, she can feel just the faintest edge of his teeth. The soft humid shape of his voice so near.

She's missed him too. At least when it is a matter of swords then at least she may then distract herself with all manner of very reasonable worries, but this? Knowing he is perfectly well, just removed, is a very intolerable kind of absence. There is no good reason for it when he might instead be in her company in Kirkwall, and so she has spent a series of days growing increasingly sullen over his absence. Here are all the books she would like to discuss with him if he were in Kirkwall still (she had written him on the subject, but it isn't the same), and here is all the gossip she would like to share with him (she had lift messages on his crystal for him to review when the time allowed). If he were in Kirkwall she might be greeted at the ferry slip in the morning by someone willing to warm her autumn chilled hands or walked home to the house in Hightown. In the little garden under the brisk snap of fall air, he might kiss her goodnight. His hands would be at her waist, and he would be very warm in the dark, and she might—

Well, it was all nonsense. And now here they are in some miserly old woman's drafty winter house (one would think the winter house would be more robust against the wind), so it hardly matters.

"You truly are acting the beast, Mister Ellis. I'm appalled to discover you in such a state."

Appalled. That's one word for it.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-09-08 02:41 am (UTC)(link)
Which state is that, he says, which is outrageous. Him with his hand at her waist and the affectionate little things her breathes into the round curve of her palm knows very well to what state she refers. It is unbearably rakish. She would do well to insist now on how poorly it suits him, particularly when viewed so up close. To that end, the edge of her thumb moves as if to silence him by pressing against his lips. It turns tentative only at the last instant, soft at his lower lip. The impulse to press timidly there toward the edge of teeth and his warm breath is—

interrupted by the FHWUMP! of a calico cat leaping down into the covered chair from the shadowed heights of the top of a nearby wardrobe. Wysteria squawks. Her startled jump sends a delicately pressing thumbnail slashing up across Ellis' cheek.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-09-08 03:25 am (UTC)(link)
In a monumental display of the sort of self discipline and teamwork forged by the fires of three years of dangerous field work, Wysteria leaps for the door as commanded. It is only when she has slammed it decisively shut with a walloping crack that she marks the blood under her nail.

The cat screams. It veers off and slides under the armoire with an audible thump in the same moment that Wysteria whirls around shrieking, "Have I cut you?!"
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-09-08 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
"Don't worry over it," is wailed back to him, all misery as she descends upon the near side of the armoire. Sorry, were you perhaps considering shifting this very heavy piece of furniture Ellis? "What if it leaves a scar? Oh, there is blood here under my nail. It's monstrous. After all this effort to come fetch you and effect a rescue!"

From under the armoire, Pouncival greets Ellis with a murderous spitting. All the cat's hairs have stood on end, tail bottle brush wide and paws sucked up into her body in an attempt to make the parts of her which might be manhandled as small as possible.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-09-08 09:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Despite her distress, she moves to follow his direction—or rather, takes a step toward it and then pauses.

"Wait, Mister Ellis. Didn't you say that you were warned by one of Lady Paget's maids of the cat's unpleasant disposition?"

See, she is indeed a very attentive listener. So keen are her ears that she can recall little vital details such as these even in moments of crisis!

Anyway, obviously Pouncival chooses this moment in which to make her attack.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-09-08 10:00 pm (UTC)(link)
The clatter and spit of the cat's assault, largely invisible to her beneath the edge of the armoire is enough to make her jump, to say nothing of whatever blood and pained replies Ellis might have for his attacker. So when the claws come swiping in her direction, she is primed to leap back with a squeal of dismay—wrenching her skirts sideways in an effort to avoid them being shredded. Which would be a fine idea, had Pouncival's claws not latched onto her hem.

The cat is dragged out from under the armoire still clinging to the fabric. The moment it is exposed to the open air, it transforms into a whirligig of claws and spit and flying fur as it attempts to detangle itself from Wysteria.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-09-09 12:14 am (UTC)(link)
Somewhere, a harpist is plucking all their strings remarkably hard in an effort to make the notes resonate as loudly as is possible.

Here though, Wysteria is attempting to both back up from the thrashing cat and avoid the further destruction of her skirts (She has to attend dinner tonight) which is resulting in a comic dredging of the animal and the distinctly increasing distance between Pouncival and Pouncival's would be captor. It takes a full moment of wiping the floor with the cat (literally; there is a trail of gently settled dust which has been swept up by the cat's floundering backside) for good sense to finally reach her. With a cry of frustration, Wysteria crouches abruptly down toward the slavering beast. In a swift motion, she closes the bulk of her skirts about the squirming cat.

"Quickly! I have him!"

A raking paw punches free, swiping murderously at the air.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-09-09 01:16 am (UTC)(link)
Yes, in theory she should be able to draw her skirts free. In practice, this requires delicate maneuvering and the eventual final detachment of a cat's snarled paw from the mutilated hem of the dark blue garment. But afterward, miraculous unscathed, they are left with an ominously murmuring make-do bag, both of them crouched around it where it sits on the floor, and—

"Oh."

There is blood beading in Ellis' beard. Wysteria reaches out, but doesn't touch him. Her hand instead dances around the prospect of touching his face and then falls away. She looks down to regard the thing trapped between them.

"Perhaps this will win you your freedom."

A special dispensation for dangerous services rendered, surely.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-09-09 04:14 am (UTC)(link)
Across from him on the other side of the snarling cat in a bag (more or less), Wysteria suddenly bristles. She scoffs.

"I have no need of the Lady of the house's charity. I am perfectly capable of doing my own mending. And furthermore"—has the sound of a thing spinning up toward full speed; a great monologue's threatening presence rising over the horizon. "If we are to broker for your freedom, it seems prudent to give you all the credit. Particularly when you were wounded in the process. In fact, I should like no part of this attributed to me including that mark I have left on your cheek. You may say it was Pouncival, and we will hope that it elicits some further sympathy from the Lady."

She will be damned if she accepts some garment from the woman who deemed her wardrobe so lackluster.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-09-09 05:10 am (UTC)(link)
"Not from the Lady Paget, thank you." The blood—his blood—is contained to under her thumbnail. There is only a trace of it. "I am perfectly content without either her accolades or charity. If she is capable of doing me any favor at all, it will be to grant your early release from her custody so that we might return to Kirkwall together."

Wysteria's attention flicks to the thrashing lump under his hand. She makes then to extract her fingers from his examination as if this will close the topic to all further debate or inquiry.

"Come now. Where must Ser Pouncival go now that you've successfully apprehended him?"
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-09-10 04:13 am (UTC)(link)
His hand tightens about hers. It halts her escape.

"No, don't be ridiculous," sounds Yes, she's dreadful.

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clenches my fist

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yells about it tbh

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outrageous but yeah tbh

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