when i go towards you it is with my whole life.
![]() | You came to the side of the bed and sat staring at me. Then you kissed me—I felt hot wax on my forehead. I wanted it to leave a mark: that’s how I knew I loved you. Because I wanted to be burned, stamped, to have something in the end— I drew the gown over my head; a red flush covered my face and shoulders. It will run its course, the course of fire, setting a cold coin on the forehead, between the eyes. You lay beside me; your hand moved over my face as though you had felt it also- you must have known, then, how I wanted you. We will always know that, you and I. The proof will be my body. — louise glück |


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Wavers from his face to his thumb at her wrist, and then back up again. She adopts a smoothly cool look. Without dislodging his hand, the white hair is flicked away.
"I imagine the Lady Paget is one of those women who one might describe as formidable if you were to meet her at some gathering. Why? What is your impression of her?"
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Maybe a generous summation, considering the amount of menial labor that's been put to him over his time in her company. He's yet to tell Wysteria about the ordeal of the curtain hanging, after all. A whole day she spent, despairing over the drape of the cloth.
The motion of his thumb at her wrist is far too deliberate to be mistaken as an absent tick.
"Did she invite you to dine with her tonight?"
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Why yes of course a guest must come to dinner no matter how shabby that guest might be.
(Wysteria tipping her chin up just slightly has nothing to do with habit at all; that is strictly done on purpose.)
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Instead, when Ellis bends it's to meet her wrist half-way, having lifted it to his mouth to put a kiss where his thumb has tracked.
"You'll see it if you spend a day or so here."
Not that Ellis is inviting such a thing. One trapped member of Riftwatch is quite enough for Lady Paget's purposes.
"But you'd be such a distraction to me that I don't think we should allow it," is also said with great seriousness. Ellis' mouth moves against her wrist to impart this concern, as he moves in a step closer to her.
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She's missed him too. At least when it is a matter of swords then at least she may then distract herself with all manner of very reasonable worries, but this? Knowing he is perfectly well, just removed, is a very intolerable kind of absence. There is no good reason for it when he might instead be in her company in Kirkwall, and so she has spent a series of days growing increasingly sullen over his absence. Here are all the books she would like to discuss with him if he were in Kirkwall still (she had written him on the subject, but it isn't the same), and here is all the gossip she would like to share with him (she had lift messages on his crystal for him to review when the time allowed). If he were in Kirkwall she might be greeted at the ferry slip in the morning by someone willing to warm her autumn chilled hands or walked home to the house in Hightown. In the little garden under the brisk snap of fall air, he might kiss her goodnight. His hands would be at her waist, and he would be very warm in the dark, and she might—
Well, it was all nonsense. And now here they are in some miserly old woman's drafty winter house (one would think the winter house would be more robust against the wind), so it hardly matters.
"You truly are acting the beast, Mister Ellis. I'm appalled to discover you in such a state."
Appalled. That's one word for it.
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His mouth remains at her wrist while his hand finds her waist, only lifting once alternately anchored. Ellis looks her over, smiling a little at finding her face so flushed.
Once, he'd told her exactly how much he missed her when their work takes them in opposite directions. He's thinking of it now, of all this time with her letters and her voice on the crystal like a tether, stretching thin between her in Kirkwall and him here, in this cavernous estate. He thinks to say it again, and does, soft against the palm of her hand:
"I missed you."
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interrupted by the FHWUMP! of a calico cat leaping down into the covered chair from the shadowed heights of the top of a nearby wardrobe. Wysteria squawks. Her startled jump sends a delicately pressing thumbnail slashing up across Ellis' cheek.
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"Make sure that door's closed!" Ellis calls to her. The level of urgency in his voice is slightly ridiculous in this setting; it's previously been reserved for rifts and active threats.
Yowling, the cat slides across the hardwood. Perhaps on target to vanish under the armoire, should it's exit strategy be denied.
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The cat screams. It veers off and slides under the armoire with an audible thump in the same moment that Wysteria whirls around shrieking, "Have I cut you?!"
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Meanwhile, Ellis' momentum has brought him thudding into the armoire as the scritch of Pouncival's claws mark his progress towards the farthest corner beneath the comically heavy armoire. Ellis' bend towards the floor is stalled by Wysteria, which freezes him half-stooped between the immediate potential for capturing his quarry and Wysteria's distress.
"Aye?" posed almost as a question, before Ellis spares on hand to touch his mouth. "Don't worry over it."
The muddle of delayed intent is truly more unsettling than the scratch rising on his face. There'd been a split second where she'd been looking at him, her finger set just so—
It's a wrench to have been interrupted. Ellis turns that aggrieved emotion down towards Pouncival.
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From under the armoire, Pouncival greets Ellis with a murderous spitting. All the cat's hairs have stood on end, tail bottle brush wide and paws sucked up into her body in an attempt to make the parts of her which might be manhandled as small as possible.
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While Ellis is compelled to reassure Wysteria that a minor scratch to his face is hardly remarkable enough to hold his notice in comparison to all other injury he's survived, he is also aware this is the closest he's been to having captured Pouncival after hours of pursuit.
It's a difficult decision.
"It's unlikely there will be a scar," is said as Ellis lowers himself further, all the way onto his belly. One hand absently squeezes her hip on the descent. "I will wash your hands of the blood once we've seen to Pouncival."
Because in spite of his advice, Ellis seems determined to put his face directly down to that cat.
"Stand along the side please?"
Surely that's a decent trick, yes? Trick this cat into thinking there's a second opponent in the room, despite Wysteria's inattention to the matter.
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"Wait, Mister Ellis. Didn't you say that you were warned by one of Lady Paget's maids of the cat's unpleasant disposition?"
See, she is indeed a very attentive listener. So keen are her ears that she can recall little vital details such as these even in moments of crisis!
Anyway, obviously Pouncival chooses this moment in which to make her attack.
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Surely this will be a comfort to Wysteria, if her own scratch to his face is utterly dwarfed by Pouncival's claws.
There is some blood, the origin of which is not immediately discernible due to Ellis' beard. What's more important to Ellis is the moment in which he has both hands gripping Pouncival around the middle as she thrashes in his grasp. Still stretched onto the floor, Ellis is not in the ideal position for leverage, but surely—
No. When Pouncival's claws swipe across his knuckles, it loosens his hold and the cat is free.
Bad news for Ellis, still on the floor, and Wysteria's hem, in convenient swiping distance.
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The cat is dragged out from under the armoire still clinging to the fabric. The moment it is exposed to the open air, it transforms into a whirligig of claws and spit and flying fur as it attempts to detangle itself from Wysteria.
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The momentum carries the cat onwards, and the spinning pass only narrowly avoids Ellis' face, enraged furry blur passing just centimeters from his cheek. He rolls further, tries to assess how best to grab hold of the beast, but the flurry of movement makes it impossible to discern a clear entry point.
"Wysteria!" is just aimless protest, frustration as Pouncival caterwauls. The weight of the cat is beginning to rend small tears in the fabric of her skirt, which will likely become large tears if left unattended.
"Don't let it back under the furniture!" is the sole instruction as Ellis scrambles to his feet to go yank a drop cloth from the table.
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Here though, Wysteria is attempting to both back up from the thrashing cat and avoid the further destruction of her skirts (She has to attend dinner tonight) which is resulting in a comic dredging of the animal and the distinctly increasing distance between Pouncival and Pouncival's would be captor. It takes a full moment of wiping the floor with the cat (literally; there is a trail of gently settled dust which has been swept up by the cat's floundering backside) for good sense to finally reach her. With a cry of frustration, Wysteria crouches abruptly down toward the slavering beast. In a swift motion, she closes the bulk of her skirts about the squirming cat.
"Quickly! I have him!"
A raking paw punches free, swiping murderously at the air.
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Instead, Ellis crouches, dust cover in hand, to sweep the layers of cloth over Wysteria's skirt. Pouncival's desperate, furious bids for freedom are stifled. Hopefully for good.
"Let go," Ellis instructs. "You should be able to draw your skirts free without taking him with you."
Theoretically.
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"Oh."
There is blood beading in Ellis' beard. Wysteria reaches out, but doesn't touch him. Her hand instead dances around the prospect of touching his face and then falls away. She looks down to regard the thing trapped between them.
"Perhaps this will win you your freedom."
A special dispensation for dangerous services rendered, surely.
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"Perhaps I should bargain with her for a new dress for you," is not a vote against Wysteria's ability to repair the garment. (Or Ellis', if it comes to that.) But more a sense of how much is at the Lady Paget's fingertips and that perhaps some of that largesse should be parceled out to Wysteria.
The collection of scrapes have not drawn his attention. Wysteria's faltering hand is caught up again.
"I'll be sure to explain to her how you captured her pet."
In glowing yet delicate terms, surely. Ellis has yet to work out whether or not he might present the bundle to Lady Paget or if he will have to find a way to extract the cat for presentation.
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"I have no need of the Lady of the house's charity. I am perfectly capable of doing my own mending. And furthermore"—has the sound of a thing spinning up toward full speed; a great monologue's threatening presence rising over the horizon. "If we are to broker for your freedom, it seems prudent to give you all the credit. Particularly when you were wounded in the process. In fact, I should like no part of this attributed to me including that mark I have left on your cheek. You may say it was Pouncival, and we will hope that it elicits some further sympathy from the Lady."
She will be damned if she accepts some garment from the woman who deemed her wardrobe so lackluster.
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Tempting fate, Ellis puts his free hand on the squirming, venomous bundle as if that might quiet Pouncival and leave him in a far better position to parse Wysteria. (It does not quite Pouncival. It does inspire some lashing movement within the wrappings, that does not dislodge Ellis' hand.)
"I thought you'd like a new dress," is said slowly. Ellis has the sense the dress is not necessarily the objectionable part of all this.
He turns her hand over in his own, examining for traces of blood as he continues, "Or to have some recognition for helping me accomplish what I'd spent most of the morning failing at."
Eventually, if prompted, Wysteria will come out with the heart of the grievance. Or so Ellis assumes.
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Wysteria's attention flicks to the thrashing lump under his hand. She makes then to extract her fingers from his examination as if this will close the topic to all further debate or inquiry.
"Come now. Where must Ser Pouncival go now that you've successfully apprehended him?"
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Ellis might say this. A straightforward answer, to be buffered by the query of whether Wysteria should like to accompany him in, or if she would like to retire to the suite of rooms Ellis has been allotted to wait for him there.
Instead, his hand tightens around hers to stall against escape as he asks, "Did Lady Paget offend you?"
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"No, don't be ridiculous," sounds Yes, she's dreadful.
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hey what the fuck
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hey they're Good
yells about it tbh
honestly
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clenches fist so tightly
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is this thread bow-ready i ask
outrageous but yeah tbh