when i go towards you it is with my whole life.
![]() | You came to the side of the bed and sat staring at me. Then you kissed me—I felt hot wax on my forehead. I wanted it to leave a mark: that’s how I knew I loved you. Because I wanted to be burned, stamped, to have something in the end— I drew the gown over my head; a red flush covered my face and shoulders. It will run its course, the course of fire, setting a cold coin on the forehead, between the eyes. You lay beside me; your hand moved over my face as though you had felt it also- you must have known, then, how I wanted you. We will always know that, you and I. The proof will be my body. — louise glück |


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Zeroing in on this, perhaps, because Ellis has no way of answering questions about money. The Commander hadn't mentioned, and Ellis hadn't asked. Admittedly, when he'd received the assignment he'd assumed it would be the work of a day or so. There'd been nothing to warn him of exactly what kind of project he's taking on.
"She explained it all at dinner, shortly as she arrived. The bulk of her servants are shutting up her summer house. Once they arrive, she'll be properly attended to again, and she won't notice at all when I leave the estate."
Presumably there is at least one designated cat-catcher among her household. It seems an oversight, to bring the cat and not it's keeper, but Ellis has never managed a household and cannot say whether or not there was good reason for the separation.
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This, she has henpecked with as she has been led from the room with only the smallest of backward glances after the looking glass and her reduced reflection in it. Dreadful, she thinks, and is so consumed with this last mental assertion that she nearly allows herself to be taken by the hand across the threshold. It is only at the very last moment that Wysteria wrings her hand free from his with a small hiss that,
"I am meant to be here as an assistant to you. Not as your— Someone might see."
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But Ellis doesn't intend to give up on holding her hands so easily. He turns to meet her in the doorway, reaching to catch her by the elbows.
"I've missed you," he repeats. "And I intend to hold your hand, and steal a kiss from you while you're here."
Would Lady Paget object? Ellis hasn't considered that at all, just as he hasn't considered the possibility of ulterior motives beyond the sense that the woman is alone and thoughtless in her assignment of tasks. He doesn't care to think very much of it at all, when Wysteria is present. Her arrival brightens even this impossible search for a cat Ellis is beginning to doubt even exists.
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She has missed him too. Otherwise why would she have come all this way to makes demands that he finish his business? And obviously she would like to hold his hand and to be kissed by him, but in the corridor where anyone dispatched to send for Lady Paget's personal Warden might see?
"It is hardly appropriate. Certainly not when the door is so wide open."
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All of this would have been far more tolerable if Wysteria had been in attendance. This is not anything new, but it is still something that sticks in his mind, even when Wysteria jabs at his ribs.
"So you would kiss me, should I find you a room with a closed door?" is not the point Wysteria might have been making.
But there are an abundance of rooms, most all empty, and all outfitted with locks. Ellis knows because in his travels he has searched perhaps a quarter of them attempting to flush out a most elusive cat.
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"That is hardly the point, Mister Ellis. And are you not in hot pursuit of a straying cat? I have already distracted you from your duties. If we were discovered, it would be well within the Lady's rights to expel us from this house."
—Which...
No, surely there are simpler ways to extract him from the Lady Paget's clutches.
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Does this mean she's carried from room to room? Maybe so.
But rather than clarify the lady's preferred mode of transportation, he draws Wysteria from the door into the hall at last, reaching back only to close off the room behind her before towing her into the drafty room across the hall.
"I'm going to check this room for the cat," he tells her, very serious in spite of the smile working at the corner of his mouth. "And then I'm going to kiss you."
Fair warning. Ellis had closed the door behind them, confident that the worst this room could contain was an irritable cat. If Lady Paget favors cursed jewelry, it's locked in her suite in the east wing of the house, overlooking the gardens.
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"If I didn't know better, I might blame this on your time away from the Gallows. That you have been too long away from decent company and have returned to some more basic nature thanks to the isolation."
This, as she slips her hand from his so she might begin to lift the edges of various obscuring sheets in an effort to flush out this mysterious animal.
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Tacked on as an aside, "Be careful. One of the maids told me Pouncival is prone to scratching any face within reach."
And the maid in question had Pouncival's handiwork on display, a fate Ellis knows for certain that Wysteria would prefer not to share.
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"I'm implying that someone must have been, for I've never known you to act like such a scoundrel. Did this maid, who I'm sure you have only had the most innocent of conversations with, say anything about what color Mssr Pouncival is?"
She holds up a straight, coarse hair plucked from off some cushion beneath the sheet.
"I believe you may be heading in the correct direction."
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The recitation of a man who has heard this description repeated multiple times in varying levels of distress and give reassurance each time that he had committed the description to memory.
"Are you a tracker now?" he asks, fond, as he crosses the room to close his hand gently around her wrist and turn her hand to look at her findings.
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The edge of the cloth is raised slightly higher to reveal a thick layer of the same hair adhered to the rich green velvet of the delicate chair beneath it. It would take significantly worse eyesight to miss the evidence.
"Pouncival has fine taste in furniture."
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Is Ellis joking? Maybe, maybe not. Having spent so much time with Lady Paget, Ellis himself can't be sure the rumor isn't actually true and he's seeking out the heir to a significant amount of wealth.
"You haven't told me what you make of her. Lady Paget."
Apart from suspicions, which Ellis doesn't count as an impression. Wysteria surely isn't serious in her aspersions.
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Wavers from his face to his thumb at her wrist, and then back up again. She adopts a smoothly cool look. Without dislodging his hand, the white hair is flicked away.
"I imagine the Lady Paget is one of those women who one might describe as formidable if you were to meet her at some gathering. Why? What is your impression of her?"
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Maybe a generous summation, considering the amount of menial labor that's been put to him over his time in her company. He's yet to tell Wysteria about the ordeal of the curtain hanging, after all. A whole day she spent, despairing over the drape of the cloth.
The motion of his thumb at her wrist is far too deliberate to be mistaken as an absent tick.
"Did she invite you to dine with her tonight?"
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Why yes of course a guest must come to dinner no matter how shabby that guest might be.
(Wysteria tipping her chin up just slightly has nothing to do with habit at all; that is strictly done on purpose.)
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Instead, when Ellis bends it's to meet her wrist half-way, having lifted it to his mouth to put a kiss where his thumb has tracked.
"You'll see it if you spend a day or so here."
Not that Ellis is inviting such a thing. One trapped member of Riftwatch is quite enough for Lady Paget's purposes.
"But you'd be such a distraction to me that I don't think we should allow it," is also said with great seriousness. Ellis' mouth moves against her wrist to impart this concern, as he moves in a step closer to her.
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She's missed him too. At least when it is a matter of swords then at least she may then distract herself with all manner of very reasonable worries, but this? Knowing he is perfectly well, just removed, is a very intolerable kind of absence. There is no good reason for it when he might instead be in her company in Kirkwall, and so she has spent a series of days growing increasingly sullen over his absence. Here are all the books she would like to discuss with him if he were in Kirkwall still (she had written him on the subject, but it isn't the same), and here is all the gossip she would like to share with him (she had lift messages on his crystal for him to review when the time allowed). If he were in Kirkwall she might be greeted at the ferry slip in the morning by someone willing to warm her autumn chilled hands or walked home to the house in Hightown. In the little garden under the brisk snap of fall air, he might kiss her goodnight. His hands would be at her waist, and he would be very warm in the dark, and she might—
Well, it was all nonsense. And now here they are in some miserly old woman's drafty winter house (one would think the winter house would be more robust against the wind), so it hardly matters.
"You truly are acting the beast, Mister Ellis. I'm appalled to discover you in such a state."
Appalled. That's one word for it.
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His mouth remains at her wrist while his hand finds her waist, only lifting once alternately anchored. Ellis looks her over, smiling a little at finding her face so flushed.
Once, he'd told her exactly how much he missed her when their work takes them in opposite directions. He's thinking of it now, of all this time with her letters and her voice on the crystal like a tether, stretching thin between her in Kirkwall and him here, in this cavernous estate. He thinks to say it again, and does, soft against the palm of her hand:
"I missed you."
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interrupted by the FHWUMP! of a calico cat leaping down into the covered chair from the shadowed heights of the top of a nearby wardrobe. Wysteria squawks. Her startled jump sends a delicately pressing thumbnail slashing up across Ellis' cheek.
perfect 10/10
"Make sure that door's closed!" Ellis calls to her. The level of urgency in his voice is slightly ridiculous in this setting; it's previously been reserved for rifts and active threats.
Yowling, the cat slides across the hardwood. Perhaps on target to vanish under the armoire, should it's exit strategy be denied.
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The cat screams. It veers off and slides under the armoire with an audible thump in the same moment that Wysteria whirls around shrieking, "Have I cut you?!"
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Meanwhile, Ellis' momentum has brought him thudding into the armoire as the scritch of Pouncival's claws mark his progress towards the farthest corner beneath the comically heavy armoire. Ellis' bend towards the floor is stalled by Wysteria, which freezes him half-stooped between the immediate potential for capturing his quarry and Wysteria's distress.
"Aye?" posed almost as a question, before Ellis spares on hand to touch his mouth. "Don't worry over it."
The muddle of delayed intent is truly more unsettling than the scratch rising on his face. There'd been a split second where she'd been looking at him, her finger set just so—
It's a wrench to have been interrupted. Ellis turns that aggrieved emotion down towards Pouncival.
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From under the armoire, Pouncival greets Ellis with a murderous spitting. All the cat's hairs have stood on end, tail bottle brush wide and paws sucked up into her body in an attempt to make the parts of her which might be manhandled as small as possible.
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While Ellis is compelled to reassure Wysteria that a minor scratch to his face is hardly remarkable enough to hold his notice in comparison to all other injury he's survived, he is also aware this is the closest he's been to having captured Pouncival after hours of pursuit.
It's a difficult decision.
"It's unlikely there will be a scar," is said as Ellis lowers himself further, all the way onto his belly. One hand absently squeezes her hip on the descent. "I will wash your hands of the blood once we've seen to Pouncival."
Because in spite of his advice, Ellis seems determined to put his face directly down to that cat.
"Stand along the side please?"
Surely that's a decent trick, yes? Trick this cat into thinking there's a second opponent in the room, despite Wysteria's inattention to the matter.
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hey what the fuck
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clenches my fist
hey they're Good
yells about it tbh
honestly
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clenches fist so tightly
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is this thread bow-ready i ask
outrageous but yeah tbh