when i go towards you it is with my whole life.
![]() | You came to the side of the bed and sat staring at me. Then you kissed me—I felt hot wax on my forehead. I wanted it to leave a mark: that’s how I knew I loved you. Because I wanted to be burned, stamped, to have something in the end— I drew the gown over my head; a red flush covered my face and shoulders. It will run its course, the course of fire, setting a cold coin on the forehead, between the eyes. You lay beside me; your hand moved over my face as though you had felt it also- you must have known, then, how I wanted you. We will always know that, you and I. The proof will be my body. — louise glück |


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Wysteria, standing in the shade of the overgrown wall into which the gate is set, folds the papers over and stows them in full to bursting satchel at her side. She is dressed very sensibly, as far as Wysteria ever is: her robust, worn field boots and skirts which fall not quite to their ankles. She has a knife in her boot and another in her belt, and that round shield from Satinalias past paints an almost comic circle behind her silhouette where it's been strapped to her back. There is no bow or collection of arrows, the strength of the anchor in her hand negating its use somewhat (her aim, too, is better with her own hand), but by and large she very nearly has the appearance of a young lady well acquainted with field work if not strictly adventure.
"I suppose we might have asked a few more questions down in the village, but there is so much daylight left that I would prefer not to waste it. We can always do interviews when we return there this evening. Why, from the state of this wall, it's possible we will spend all of it looking for a way in and hardly have a chance to explore before the light fails us. Which directions would you care to try in first," she asks, attention shifting brightly to him from the barricade in question. "I'm sure we will find a place where the masonry has begun to fail, and then we might simply climb over."
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But the shield will have to suffice for today. Ellis puts it aside, crossing as she speaks to grasp the rusted bars of the gate and give them a short, testing pull.
"I'd like the front gate clear, even if we go in around the side," he says, thoughtfully. "It might be the most direct way out."
Which can be mistaken as convenience, but it's largely about Ellis thinking about the idea of retreating and the possibility of being able to simply run out the front door to the horses rather than something less straightforward. When he puts his full weight against the bars, they give a grating creak, shift a little, then stop. Ellis glances back to her.
"Come here. I think we might be able to break it loose."
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Presuming that he does, and assuming that her study of the gate and its sturdy old settings into the wall goes on relatively uninterrupted, Wysteria at once produces the knife from her belt and goes clattering off into the trees.
"Hold for a moment," she calls cheerfully from amidst the shimmering grey-green foliage, and in relatively short order she returns huffing and puffing in possession of a sturdy stick hacked from one of the birch trees hunkered in about them.
"Here. Help me apply this to where the gate connects to the end of the wall. The leverage may force free the connection."
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But it's hardly a surprise that Wysteria considers some alternate method almost instantly, and without adding her weight to his where Ellis had braced a shoulder against the rusted metal. As she vanished into brush, Ellis' efforts had waned to the point of a near-slouch, only straightening at Wysteria's re-appearance.
"Clever," Ellis tells her, even allowing for the potential of the branch snapping in the course of her work. "I wouldn't have thought of it."
There may be a more economical way to go about the placing of branch, but Ellis chooses to set his hands over hers, leaning in close as he circles her with his arms to begin the work of bearing down on the makeshift lever Wysteria has fetched.
Is it a distraction from the actual work to be set in so close to her? Maybe. But surely their combined effort is enough to pop open the gate.
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Whether the distinct pleasure in her voice is in relation to her own cleverness, or to the repeat value of the trick, or for the less than strictly practical purpose of Ellis' arms about her and the sturdiness of his presence at her back, or some combination of all three is a mystery. Regardless, with the branch placed Wysteria is perfectly happy to lean her weight against it in tandem with him.
The effects on the gate are less than immediate. There is some groaning and general complaint from the metal work, but for a series of minutes the fastening seems like it is sunk very tight indeed and that the stonework about it will remain stubbornly in possession of the pin. And then, at last, there begins a trickle of mortar and occurs the smallest shift—
"Have you ever observed a stone mason at work, Mister Ellis? They do a clever thing with a series of chisels and a hammer to encourage stone to split along the line of their choosing."
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"Do you have a chisel hidden in your bag?" Ellis questions, chin hooked onto the outer edge of her shoulder.
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"I suppose we might also try tying the horses to it to see whether they could pull it free, or—"
All at once she pauses, stilling. And then laughs, a bright sound which rings over the moss covered stone gate posts and is stolen away by the density of the pressed close foliage.
"Oh, we're very stupid."
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Ellis' hands shift over Wysteria's, as if anticipating a third attempt at leveraging the branch against the gate. He'd turned very slightly to glance at the horses, though that minor movement is reversed, realigned back to her.
"Tell me in what way we're stupid."
Something easier to believe of himself than Wysteria, a protest that is more or less on the heels of the solicitation.
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"We must not include this in our report," she says between her teeth and around the gloves. "Mister Stark would never allow me to forget it."
What good is an anchor that can throw things if not to knock a rusted old gate from its hinges?
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"We shouldn't keep things from Tony," is not a no.
He thinks to ask her: Will it hurt?
But he holds that question in check. One hand settles between her shoulder blades as he steps to her side, all the better to see her face.
"But if you think it's worth trying, we might as well see if you can flatten a rusted gate."
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Evidently decided, she bats his arm cheerfully aside and moves to position herself before the rusted shut edifice entrance. She shakes her anchor hand out, flexing fingers and tightening it into a fist by turns as if by stretching out the joints she might more easily activate the thing.
"Remove the branch for me. I shouldn't want it to be thrown about if this is very dramatic.."
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"Stand further back," is apparently the only guideline Ellis can settle on. "You don't want to be hit by any stray rock or metal."
He'd pull her back himself, but that feels like an counterproductive urge. Branch over one shoulder, he crosses back to her and then retreats a short distance further. Surely coincidental that he positions himself directly behind her, just in case.
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"And don't think that it hasn't occurred to me that no one is ever very concerned when either Mister Stark or Madame Baudin does this trick either," is the last thing she says before she raises her hand and levels the slash of the anchor shard at the gate.
It is, in a way, a little like any magic. It isn't a matter of concentration or construction, but it is absolutely one of intent. Of will. Of wanting something. And what, at its very core, is any magic if not the manifestation of that? And it does—hurt. The jagged piercing sensation of it wrenches up the length of her arm in reverse motion to the great outward crack! of force. But that too is a little like any magician's work. All things have cost.
And besides, there is hardly any reason to linger long in study over the shooting pain in her hand. Not when the blast wrenches the gate free of one of its supports with a great shriek of stone and metal. Back where they are picketed, the horses pull nervously as the gate flops gracelessly backward. It is not a full separation. One side of the structure is still attached to its gate post. But there is enough of a gap in the sagging barrier so as to afford them safe passage around or under it.
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It's impressive, Ellis will admit. But it makes him uneasy to watch Wysteria summon great cracks of energy from her palm, just as it makes him uneasy when Tony makes too much use of his own shard. If it weren't so obviously effective, then maybe he'd be able to argue more convincingly that they needn't resort to using them, but—
But the gate is blown sufficiently open. Ellis' desired easy access point is achieved. He flings their makeshift lever towards the brush before crossing to her, reaching for her shard-struck palm to reel her in towards him.
"Well done," said to the same cadence as Are you alright?
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Wysteria's smile sprawls wide and quite self satisfied. She retrieves the glove from her pocket.
"As I promised. Very dashing."
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Impressed is close enough to truth, or it's part of the truth. It sounds better than to say, I'm worried. It would dim her smile, and Ellis is so very fond of seeing her smile. Especially this kind of smile, the one she wears when she's pleased with herself, when something's gone right.
His opposite hand closes over the glove in her fingers as he draws her palm up then bends to put a kiss there, just beneath the pulsing gleam of the shard.
"You hardly need me along at all," is said with a smile, Ellis' mouth pressed against her fingers before he straightens enough for her to see his face again.
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Ellis rises, and Wysteria's nominally captured hand insists on rising with him so she might stroke his bearded chin between her thumb and forefinger.
"I can hardly be expected to carry all my own things, Mister Ellis."
Ha ha ha.
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But he chuckles anyway. There is a momentary, easy sway of his body in towards her, coaxed by her fingers. When his grip loosens around her opposite hand, it's to draw the spare glove away as he breaks contact.
"Aye, that's true," he agrees. "I do excel at that."
His hand finds her hip, spans her waist.
"Remind me what you would like to carry through that gate with us?"
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"The thaumoscope for one," she informs him. "And I've my little traveling desk in the same case with it for if we need to stop to take any records. I can carry one or the other, but surely not both. Not if I wish to be a reliable ally to you against whatever dreadful things we might find waiting inside for us. Now, kiss my cheek and tell me how clever I am and then we ought to be on our way. We have wasted quite enough daylight as it is."
Smiling, she lifts her face and expectantly bears her cheek to his attentions.
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There is work to be done. If they lose the light, Ellis will certainly regret it. But still—
First, a soft kiss to her cheek as request. Then, a second, stolen kiss set at the corner of her mouth, and then, before objection can be raised, a third, brief kiss to her lips.
"You are very clever," he tells her, straightening just far enough to look at her. His thumbs stroke her cheeks. "And are you certain you don't want to bring the set of bottles for collecting samples as well?"
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"But yes, now that you mention them, the bottles may as well come along too. I packed only the slim set, so don't bother to look for the other. And I will carry the pack of glowstones and the lantern."
Plucking her face from out of his hands, she steals back her glove and gives his side a teasing poke for good measure. Off with you.
we're very industrious
The courtyard is beautiful, even ruined and covered in the famed moss. If the letter hadn't begged otherwise, Ellis might have tried to remove some to get a better sense of the crumbling statues lining the walkway up to the rotted wood doors leading into the structure.
"You can push the right one in," Ellis directs Wysteria, hands momentarily occupied with baggage. "By the looks of it, it would have rotted to nothing within a few months whether or not we came along."
There's no sign of trouble just yet, but the courtyard is filled with sunlight and welcoming enough. Surely the problem either manifests in the dark, or is mostly contained behind these doors.
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As promised, the right hand door comes open under her hand with little more than a just judicious shoves to clear past the detritus of growing things on the other side. Beyond it lies the great entrance of the older castle: a broad space with two matching staircases, the upper levels of the room flanked by gallery balconies. Sunlight dapples the hall, burnishing the overgrowth in yellows and golds through the empty sockets of windows from which glass or shutters have long been absent.
Wysteria promptly sets down the bulkiest items of her kit and from the satchel at her hip produces a little booklet.
"Let us set the majority of our things here. We should aim to cover as much ground as possible while we still have light to map the castle by. We can make a second sweep to take up any samples or retrieve any notable objects, but I think it silly to trundle about with the whole world in our pockets to begin with. Agreed?"
She has already produced her pen and from the booklet has unfolded an illogically large piece of paper onto which to begin jotting down notes regarding the castle's layout.
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And after that, a moment to eye the nooks and crannies, the ivy-draped corners that could hide trouble from view.
But there's nothing immediately visible that needs attention, so he's free to cross back to Wysteria.
"Aye, the holes in the ceiling are a benefit," he points out, mostly because it seems that they aren't in danger of the roof collapsing in on them. "We'd best start at the upper levels and work down."
In the course of the proposition, Ellis had freed his mace from where it had been secured at his belt. Taking care not to disturb her note-taking, he sets his free hand at the small of her back as he asks, "Left or right side?"
The stairs bend and meet at the top landing, stonework mirroring the curving ascent. Ellis asks Wysteria this the way he'd have asked her which table she'd like at a tavern or which type of flower she'd like for the garden, just to hear her opinion rather than out of concern for the choice itself.
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Though she pauses only for a few seconds, and is perfectly decisive when she declares, "The left, I think."
She jots a note down, then folds then paper back into the booklet. The booklet is pocketed; the pen is...put wherever the pen usually goes; and with a brief touch of her hand to his elbow, she and her remaining collection of gear is moving for the left hand staircase.
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squeaks this tag in before bed
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cant believe dw hid this from me
an OUTRAGE who do i call
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don't fail me dreamwidth
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spins roulette wheel to see if this notif arrives
denise heard us talkin shit
notifs return when danger is passed, coincidence??????
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veering close to bow territory here
tentatively slaps one on there unless you have something to add