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ellis ginsberg. ([personal profile] heorte) wrote2021-03-06 07:30 pm

when i go towards you it is with my whole life.







You came to the side of the bed
and sat staring at me.
Then you kissed me—I felt
hot wax on my forehead.
I wanted it to leave a mark:
that’s how I knew I loved you.
Because I wanted to be burned, stamped,
to have something in the end—
I drew the gown over my head;
a red flush covered my face and shoulders.
It will run its course, the course of fire,
setting a cold coin on the forehead, between the eyes.
You lay beside me; your hand moved over my face
as though you had felt it also-
you must have known, then, how I wanted you.
We will always know that, you and I.
The proof will be my body.
— louise glück
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-11-28 05:17 am (UTC)(link)
"Only if you will wait while I pin up my hair properly," is the very weakest protest, made even while submitting to the delicate work of his fingers. Oh very well. He may undo the ribbons and take her red cape too.

"I refuse to have dinner with you on what it meant to be a proper evening half dressed. Properly dressed I mean. Obviously I have all my other clothes on."

Right. Shedding the hat and cape. She still has a fistful of pins in her skirt pocket.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-11-28 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
For all her fussing and fiddling, she is indeed perfectly deft with that pocketful of pins. In quick succession, Wysteria has her pale hair twisted into a semblance of neatness and picked into place. She more than ready to be led by the hand by the time Ellis returns to take her by it.

—and to scoff and roll her eyes and slap at his wrist without actually letting him go.

"If you must."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-11-28 07:04 am (UTC)(link)
Wysteria smooths her skirts once. And then a second time, laughing reflexively.

"No, I don't believe so. It's just the one time as far as I'm aware. Though I've become rather practiced, you know. I think if you tried again, I might best you."

There, see. She will simply make a joke out of the whole affair. Shifting up in her chair, she fetches the bottle on the table and promptly sets about working the cork free. She continues to talk in the interim.

"But there are other requirements now, of course. Ordinarily there would be, er, certain dishes we might be expected to share? But if those scones are made with any fruit then they should do. And then we're meant to share to a cup, but you and I have very different tastes in that sort of thing so I won't require it of you."

Pop! After a brief sniff of the wine soaked cork, Wysteria pours herself a glass of the spiced wine.

"But there is a game we might play."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-11-28 07:46 am (UTC)(link)
"Oh— Well." With a little flame of guilt licking at her, Wysteria sets the cup down and nudges it gently in his direction.

"No, it doesn't require cards. Which is convenient, as I doubt either of brought any. It is more a... a game in which two people are meant to become better acquainted with one another. Though I think it's much more challenging to play when those two people have not spent quite so much time together as you and I have. Which would be very unusual, you know. I believe betrothed people in Kalvad are rarely such good friends, so it would ordinarily make sense to play along."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-11-28 08:14 am (UTC)(link)
No, they would not have found time to have much in the way of informal conversation, she doesn't say. Instead she takes her cup back and takes a more formidable sip from it and fetches one of the scones to her.

"Not quite," she lies. A question for a question is far too easy a game. And is easily wriggled out of. She searches for a moment for an alternative, covering the pause by breaking her chosen scone in half until she finally settles on—

"It's a game where questions are asked and kisses are exchanged for answers. To be sure, ah, that by the time a couple is married that they know one another quite well."

Yes that sounds very possible.

"But it can't be played very well over dinner," she hastens to add. Obviously. "So we will have to talk about something else in the mean time and you may use the time to think up what you still care to ask me."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-11-28 08:48 am (UTC)(link)
"Oh that."

Without thinking to preface it with a coy flutter of eyelashes as she ought to—'Yes, but what will you give me for it, Mister Ellis?' a clever woman in one of those terrible little books Alexandrie sometimes reads would say—, Wysteria promptly launches into an explanation of how she and Tony had been testing various components for smelting lighter armor plating, and how their latest combination requires fire treating and a glaze of liquified serpentstone ore, which naturally requires a powerful solvent such as—

So on and so forth, chattering along at breakneck speed as they share the dinner he's so studiously arranged for them. She is so pleased to tell him every little detail that by the time she reaches the end of the explanation, Wysteria has nearly forgotten that sense of foolishness she'd felt when he'd first snatched her up off her feet.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-12-10 10:55 am (UTC)(link)
She has made efficient work of her half of the meal and a great deal of the little bottle of wine (of which she has always been perfectly capable of drinking more than her fair share without much in the way of ill effect), and in another half mark or so the pleasant hum of the latter may begin to strike her. One might deem this, between the food and the patter of conversation, being lulled into a false sense of security. She has almost forgotten her lie by the time Ellis returns them to it.

If there is a flicker of trepidation in her expression—

"No," she resolves. "No, it can't be helped. It's tradition, you know. And we can read any other evening. Or even after the game, I suppose. If you still care to. —Which I don't see why you shouldn't, of course. But, er—"

She gives the table setting a once over, and then searches her own skirt pockets until she produces a coin. Some of the dinner things are cleared to the side and the coin is poised for spinning.

"Heads or tails? Whichever of us loses will have to answer first."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-12-10 10:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Here, Wysteria's hesitation is so pronounced that even she must recognize that there's no real masking it. The coin remains poised between her forefingers for spinning and after a long beat, she confesses—

"There must be a penalty. But I don't remember what it's meant to be. Would you like to suggest one?"
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-12-10 11:09 pm (UTC)(link)
For a split second, she fails to comprehend exactly what he's suggesting. No, no, of course forfeiting the kiss wouldn't do. That is far too simple, and besides if he refused enough time than maybe she might begin to think he didn't care for her kisses or was being purposefully obtuse and neither of those would make a particularly good foot with which to step into a marriage, now would they?

You know. Hypothetically speaking. If this were a legitimate game and now some foolishness she were making up for her own amusement.

And then all at once Wysteria registers his meaning and in the same moment some flush of color registers at the back of her neck. It rapidly spreads into her ears and hairline, growing briefly very pink.

"Yes, that will do," is quite assertive despite her embarrassment. "Call it if you please, Mister Ellis."

She spins the coin.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-12-11 04:59 am (UTC)(link)
If Ellis really is doomed to playing a losing game, he at least starts with advantage. After spinning there there in the empty spot on the table, glinting dully in the candelight, the copper finally falls over with a muffled click on the thin table cloth.

Heads.

Wysteria raises her attention expectantly. The color is still warm on the back of her neck.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-12-11 05:46 am (UTC)(link)
"That's not true at all. I was very cold to you when we first met, you remember. I would be shocked if I said more than two words to you."

As if Wysteria has ever limited herself to two words with even the most hateful of Tevinter kidnappers.

She has snatched the copper from the table and disappeared it back into the pocket of her skirts. This minor point of outrage has cooled the heat of her flush considerably. And anyway, it's a simple question.

"My mother would dislike it and my father would think it was perfectly suitable. He comes from common—if you'll forgive the term; you know my meaning—stock too, you know. I think she could be swayed over on account of your Warden business being just a little like the northern Hausseurs. Very, very little like it. In the sense that they are both engaged in protecting against threats, and also that they have secrets and so on. And the money might be a point of contention, of course. But if we were there or they were here, I don't see how it would matter. It would sort out either way."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-12-11 06:21 am (UTC)(link)
She raises her chin by a fraction in reply to that first mark—a stubborn sort of pride flashing in the angle of her face and some brief flash in her very blue eyes. That's true. They'd not managed to stop her when it had mattered before, and it seems highly unlikely that they'd have managed to dissuade her in this either—

"Oh now, I should think. Otherwise we might ask one another questions all evening and never get round to doling out the prizes."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-12-11 06:52 am (UTC)(link)
Wysteria has shifted slightly in her chair as he'd risen, sitting up straighter and taller as if in anticipation of this very thing, her hands patiently folding one over the other on the table before her. And so she is very willing to have her face turned up at the behest of his fingertips on the soft underside of her jaw. Like someone easily motivated by the earning of good marks or praise, she is all rapt expectation as he bends down to her.

That said, it's a better kiss than she's expecting. If their positions were reversed, she might have kissed his cheek or his temple or only given him a chaste little kiss on the mouth like a playful tug at his tunic hem. This is not that. It's full and sweet and patient. The scrape of his beard is pleasantly chafing. It doesn't bring the heat back into her face. Rather, the kiss serves to cool some nervous impulse. It makes for a fine point on which to focus so that when they do part, the buzzing of her attention has narrowed and quieted considerably.

Nevermind the silly subterfuge and her almost stabbing him to death with a hair pin. The room is very thoughtful, and it's kind that he's gone to so much effort to make her happy.

Wysteria's face remains turned up toward him, her mouth soft. But she doesn't let him withdraw very far before asking—

"Which is your favorite color?"

See. She can be kind too.

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