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ellis ginsberg. ([personal profile] heorte) wrote2021-03-06 07:30 pm

when i go towards you it is with my whole life.







You came to the side of the bed
and sat staring at me.
Then you kissed me—I felt
hot wax on my forehead.
I wanted it to leave a mark:
that’s how I knew I loved you.
Because I wanted to be burned, stamped,
to have something in the end—
I drew the gown over my head;
a red flush covered my face and shoulders.
It will run its course, the course of fire,
setting a cold coin on the forehead, between the eyes.
You lay beside me; your hand moved over my face
as though you had felt it also-
you must have known, then, how I wanted you.
We will always know that, you and I.
The proof will be my body.
— louise glück
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[personal profile] heirring 2022-01-16 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
"I assure you—I am always ready."

Surely there are certain facts which might lend well to quibbling over such a claim, but in this sense at least she is telling the truth. As much as she is holding on to his arm, Wysteria is who takes a first wobbly step off the snowy bank and onto the ice. That it's punctuated by a faint squawking as she gets her second foot down and struggles to remind herself upright is neither here for there.

"I seem to remember this being much easier the last time," she remarks, mittened hand an iron cuff at his elbow and wrist as they take their first scuffing half-strides.
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[personal profile] heirring 2022-01-16 06:52 am (UTC)(link)
"Maybe I was merely more determined to be competent the last time," seems quite reasonable, save for the part where she is confessing it aloud to him. It's the sort of thing one should ordinarily be compelled to keep secret. "I was very determined to show de Foncé that I could do as I pleased."

She is looking at her feet as they go along, her hands clasped tight on his. It's not that Wysteria is poorly balanced, she is merely awkward: bent slightly too far forward, and traipsing more than gliding across the surface of the ice. But her ankles aren't wobbly, and she isn't tentative about putting her weight on the narrow little blades—
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[personal profile] heirring 2022-01-18 01:10 am (UTC)(link)
She does straighten—just a little, by a handful of wobbling degrees. The difference is fairly negligible, however in a handful of strides and through some combination of standing more upright and simply having reacquainted herself with the whole task of trudging along across the ice, she has regained some of her

Well, grace isn't the proper word for it. Confidence might be a better one, given how she withdraws a hand from his and allows herself to plunk along with her free arm extended for balance.

"I recall you refusing to be drawn into out sport, is what I recall. A very poor show all things considered, Mister Ellis."

Mister Ellis. An unbroken habit.
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[personal profile] heirring 2022-01-18 02:00 am (UTC)(link)
Wysteria's hmmmm and the power of her sidelong look is pure skepticism—not so coy as to play with raised eyebrows and a look of innocence, but instead all narrowed and pinched and highly doubtful.

"How convenient that you've found so much time to improve since then."

Don't you lie to her, sir.
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[personal profile] heirring 2022-01-18 04:05 am (UTC)(link)
"Oh!" The narrowed point of her play suspicion relents almost instantly, and the pleasure which shines through after it from amidst the bundle of her scarf is very sincere. "Yes, that sounds delightful. And it's not that far. And I suppose if you get tired, we can just walk along bank. My shoes should be more or less fit for it."

Fitness, when one spends a great deal of their time running about the many stairwells of Kirkwall, is to some extent given and she seems to think not at all of of the possibility that her ankles might object or that she will grow tired or traipsing clumsily around on the skates with her shoulders half bowed.

"I quite like the idea of escaping that drafty old lodge for a night. No, obviously it's very fine. But it's different when it's all full of people versus when it isn't."
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[personal profile] heirring 2022-01-18 08:17 am (UTC)(link)
"Oh, no. It's not the weather or that I'm lonely or anything like that. It just is rather like being on assignment, only the staff at the old house are all very—Well. I think we would invoke less curiosity, I suppose, if there had been more members of Riftwatch along with us. I have been having the most outrageous conversations with the mistress who oversees the kitchens."

So outrageous that their contents aren't suitable to repeat even when accounting for the fact that Ellis is her husband.

"I'm very selfish and jealous, you know. I dislike sharing you with anyone, even if it's only by way of gossip," she says, widening her eyes and raising her eyebrows to humorous effect as she scrapes along in his wake.
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[personal profile] heirring 2022-03-07 02:43 am (UTC)(link)
Wysteria's little squawk of surprise for being hauled in is cut short as she thumps into him, her free hand grasping instinctively at his coat front to offset the comical wobble of her feet in her skates. If he were slightly less balanced or she were marginally in a poorer mood, he might earn a sharp look and a pinch as a reward for the hijinks. As it is, she just wrinkles her nose up at him and finds herself more or less satisfied with being caught up so.

"I can't tell you. It's highly inappropriate."
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[personal profile] heirring 2022-03-07 07:40 am (UTC)(link)
"No, it's not—"

Her instant reply is cut short and her nose wrinkles slightly further yet as Wysteria mentally reconsiders her answer. Does it bother her that the skeleton staff at the lodge twitters about them like a flock of little gossipy birds, or that the head maid has engaged her twice in (very colorful) conversation regarding exactly how a woman ought to conduct herself during her first month or marriage? Before, she would have said yes. It would have bothered her. It would have mortified her to be the subject of that kind of low rumor. But it's different, isn't it? When everyone knows. When it's the sort of thing that's simply expected rather than a rude kind of conjecture.

"I think it's funny, is all. Half the ladies seem very envious and the rest are quite convinced that I require schooling. Why," she asks, tipping her face up toward him by a further degree. "Does it bother you? I can tell them to stop."

He is so painstakingly guarded.
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[personal profile] heirring 2022-03-08 05:56 am (UTC)(link)
His breath is shockingly and delightfully warm amidst the cold mountain air, and the kiss leaves her very aware of her mouth after. In place of real embarrassment, Wysteria shoots him a sidelong look and flaps one mittened hand at his coat front.

"I think I can survive the banter of a few women. But what I won't do is ever arrive at this little village if you insist on keeping us occupied on the middle of the ice all afternoon."
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I rolled the bones and they say yada yada but reserving the right to surprise you with peril later

[personal profile] heirring 2022-03-08 07:09 am (UTC)(link)
It's a good thing he keeps this last bit to herself, for otherwise she might do that thing she likes to do best—scoffing with her whole throat and chest and jabbing her fingers in the direction of his well padded ribs. Instead, Wysteria merely nods her approval—"Very good, Mister Ellis. Then lead on"—and makes to unravel herself from him (sans one grasping hand).

To her credit, she does eventually grasp the fundamentals well enough that she might untether himself from him completely and be perfectly well even on the rougher surfaces of the frozen river. But that would necessitate releasing his hand, and even after these many hours of being near to him she is loathe to dispense with that little point of contact. But it frees her up for chatting conversation, and to observe the riverbanks as they scuff along, and to discuss at length the state of the Lodge and Riftwatch's presence here in the mountains, and the present state of the war effort, and a considerable portion of the work she and Tony are currently engaged in.

Wysteria has never had any trouble whatsoever filling what ordinarily might default to silence, peaceful or otherwise. She confidently transforms the pristine beauty of the great outdoors to a social function, rather like they are sweeping along the margins of some grand party and she is valiantly defending him from being plucked into wearing conversations with the trees and glimpses of wildlife.

By the time they reach the village, it's fires glinting is the softening burnish colors at the end of the day, she is indeed still quite warm from the exercise. And by the time they traipse their way into the common room of the village's lone pub, she is red cheeked from the weather and the trampling around in the snow on the way up from the river both. Her skates once more are hanging off her shoulder by their laces, and she is laughing triumphantly over having successfully crammed a fistful of snow down the neck of Ellis's clothes.
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[personal profile] heirring 2022-03-09 07:20 am (UTC)(link)
"Ravenously," is all laughter and faux thrown elbows as she plays at attempting to free herself from his hold. "But I'm sure the lady of the house will let you sit by the hearth and warm your back. Oh careful, careful—mind the skates."

All in good cheer, Wysteria claps a firmer hold on the base of the skate blade laid before her shoulder to keep it from biting into any of her bundled clothes.

Laughing and all in high spirits, Wysteria pushes through the door and into the lively public house. It isn't crowded precisely, but this is clearly where a great deal of the village goes when the daylight begins to go. A fire is burning high in the great hearth, complete with a knot of old men near it, and various tables and chairs dotted with cold-flush tradesmen and women. It's busy enough that the woman keeping the bar seems unlikely to pay them much mind for some minutes, and so Wysteria simply wades in to find them a place far from the frost glazed windows to sit.
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[personal profile] heirring 2022-08-25 05:08 am (UTC)(link)
"Nonsense! The fire is just there," she cries, all good spirits as she adjusts her chair and scoots closer to the table's edge. "I guarantee you will be perfectly warm by the time your find your way to bed."

From someone else, it might cut dangerously close to innuendo. From Wysteria, this is simply a fact dispensed with the brutally high humored thoughtlessness as she might render anything else. Indeed, he has spent these last hours listening to her assessment of a great many topics. This is just one brisk observation in a very long line.

The skates having migrated to across the back of her chair, Wysteria removes her mittens and lays them both on the table. She aggressively works her fingers so as to encourage some mobility back into them. The anchor glimmers there in her naked palm, nauseating green and winking in the lamplight.

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