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ellis ginsberg. ([personal profile] heorte) wrote2021-03-06 07:30 pm

when i go towards you it is with my whole life.







You came to the side of the bed
and sat staring at me.
Then you kissed me—I felt
hot wax on my forehead.
I wanted it to leave a mark:
that’s how I knew I loved you.
Because I wanted to be burned, stamped,
to have something in the end—
I drew the gown over my head;
a red flush covered my face and shoulders.
It will run its course, the course of fire,
setting a cold coin on the forehead, between the eyes.
You lay beside me; your hand moved over my face
as though you had felt it also-
you must have known, then, how I wanted you.
We will always know that, you and I.
The proof will be my body.
— louise glück
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-11-07 06:06 am (UTC)(link)
"The effect? And what effect is that meant to be exactly?" she begins to bluster back, clinging to the saddle with one hand against the paranoia of somehow overbalancing despite his hand there at her back.

And then all at once—

She moves as if to straighten, the abruptness of it nearly well and truly ruining how he's placed her. Some scrabbling occurs which the horse, reliable though it may be, no doubt would prefer didn't. When she has recovered, Wysteria demands with marginally less heat, "Are you attempting to kidnap me, sir?"
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-11-07 03:19 pm (UTC)(link)
There is a brief, instant flush of outrage which rises in her that is equal parts—no, it is all embarrassment.

This is not how a bridal kidnapping in Kalvad is meant to go. She doesn't think it is, in any case. Surely you aren meant to see your betrothed's face so you don't accidentally attempt to stab him to death— But slung there across the saddle with his hand so studiously avoiding her backside and a dozen eyes glancing uneasily in their direction, it occurs to Wysteria that she doesn't actually know. Every bride she has ever known has always been perfectly (coyly) innocent about the evening in question and—

Thank the Maker that he is on the other side of the horse and unlikely to see her look of absolute mortification. Imagine if she had managed to sink her pin into him.

"No." Wysteria strangles out a reply only a few seconds later, this absurd mental calculation having occurred more or less instantly. "It would not ruin the effect."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-11-27 10:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Throughout her struggle, she had managed to retain her little felt hat. This is a blessing, for her half pinned hair has somewhat failed to withstand all the trouble and she may more or less twist the whole affair and shove it up under the cap and be more or less presentable once they have arrived and dismounted without anyone (such as the lovely woman who greets them) being much the wiser. This simple fact somewhat reduces the mortification inherent in having attempted to stab Ellis to death so that once they've been shown to the room—which is indeed very lovely—, she has the room in which to feel a small prickle of pleasure stirring underneath all the murderous embarrassment.

"Oh," sound quite surprised, albeit in a distinctly less horrified vein than all her other shock prior to this moment. "It's very prettily done."

(She is not in her best dress or even her second best dress. The thought prompts Wysteria to absently smooth the wrinkles in her skirts as the door is shut prudently behind them.)
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-11-28 04:47 am (UTC)(link)
"Oh. Well—"

Here she might confess the truth. That she has no idea what is meant to happen to the kidnapped bride to be when she has been spirited off before her wedding. It's quite possible that a fine meal is shared, or even that there are no requirements whatsoever.

She is on the very verge of saying so when she is gripped by some alternative.

"No, this is perfectly well," she says instead after a moment as his hand lies just there at her elbow. "And it's entirely my fault for not telling you. I can hardly blame you for not knowing. It isn't as if—well, never mind it and not to worry. I will, uh, lead you through the particulars over dinner?"

Nailed it.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-11-28 05:17 am (UTC)(link)
"Only if you will wait while I pin up my hair properly," is the very weakest protest, made even while submitting to the delicate work of his fingers. Oh very well. He may undo the ribbons and take her red cape too.

"I refuse to have dinner with you on what it meant to be a proper evening half dressed. Properly dressed I mean. Obviously I have all my other clothes on."

Right. Shedding the hat and cape. She still has a fistful of pins in her skirt pocket.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-11-28 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
For all her fussing and fiddling, she is indeed perfectly deft with that pocketful of pins. In quick succession, Wysteria has her pale hair twisted into a semblance of neatness and picked into place. She more than ready to be led by the hand by the time Ellis returns to take her by it.

—and to scoff and roll her eyes and slap at his wrist without actually letting him go.

"If you must."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-11-28 07:04 am (UTC)(link)
Wysteria smooths her skirts once. And then a second time, laughing reflexively.

"No, I don't believe so. It's just the one time as far as I'm aware. Though I've become rather practiced, you know. I think if you tried again, I might best you."

There, see. She will simply make a joke out of the whole affair. Shifting up in her chair, she fetches the bottle on the table and promptly sets about working the cork free. She continues to talk in the interim.

"But there are other requirements now, of course. Ordinarily there would be, er, certain dishes we might be expected to share? But if those scones are made with any fruit then they should do. And then we're meant to share to a cup, but you and I have very different tastes in that sort of thing so I won't require it of you."

Pop! After a brief sniff of the wine soaked cork, Wysteria pours herself a glass of the spiced wine.

"But there is a game we might play."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-11-28 07:46 am (UTC)(link)
"Oh— Well." With a little flame of guilt licking at her, Wysteria sets the cup down and nudges it gently in his direction.

"No, it doesn't require cards. Which is convenient, as I doubt either of brought any. It is more a... a game in which two people are meant to become better acquainted with one another. Though I think it's much more challenging to play when those two people have not spent quite so much time together as you and I have. Which would be very unusual, you know. I believe betrothed people in Kalvad are rarely such good friends, so it would ordinarily make sense to play along."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-11-28 08:14 am (UTC)(link)
No, they would not have found time to have much in the way of informal conversation, she doesn't say. Instead she takes her cup back and takes a more formidable sip from it and fetches one of the scones to her.

"Not quite," she lies. A question for a question is far too easy a game. And is easily wriggled out of. She searches for a moment for an alternative, covering the pause by breaking her chosen scone in half until she finally settles on—

"It's a game where questions are asked and kisses are exchanged for answers. To be sure, ah, that by the time a couple is married that they know one another quite well."

Yes that sounds very possible.

"But it can't be played very well over dinner," she hastens to add. Obviously. "So we will have to talk about something else in the mean time and you may use the time to think up what you still care to ask me."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-11-28 08:48 am (UTC)(link)
"Oh that."

Without thinking to preface it with a coy flutter of eyelashes as she ought to—'Yes, but what will you give me for it, Mister Ellis?' a clever woman in one of those terrible little books Alexandrie sometimes reads would say—, Wysteria promptly launches into an explanation of how she and Tony had been testing various components for smelting lighter armor plating, and how their latest combination requires fire treating and a glaze of liquified serpentstone ore, which naturally requires a powerful solvent such as—

So on and so forth, chattering along at breakneck speed as they share the dinner he's so studiously arranged for them. She is so pleased to tell him every little detail that by the time she reaches the end of the explanation, Wysteria has nearly forgotten that sense of foolishness she'd felt when he'd first snatched her up off her feet.
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-12-10 10:55 am (UTC)(link)
She has made efficient work of her half of the meal and a great deal of the little bottle of wine (of which she has always been perfectly capable of drinking more than her fair share without much in the way of ill effect), and in another half mark or so the pleasant hum of the latter may begin to strike her. One might deem this, between the food and the patter of conversation, being lulled into a false sense of security. She has almost forgotten her lie by the time Ellis returns them to it.

If there is a flicker of trepidation in her expression—

"No," she resolves. "No, it can't be helped. It's tradition, you know. And we can read any other evening. Or even after the game, I suppose. If you still care to. —Which I don't see why you shouldn't, of course. But, er—"

She gives the table setting a once over, and then searches her own skirt pockets until she produces a coin. Some of the dinner things are cleared to the side and the coin is poised for spinning.

"Heads or tails? Whichever of us loses will have to answer first."
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[personal profile] heirring 2021-12-10 10:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Here, Wysteria's hesitation is so pronounced that even she must recognize that there's no real masking it. The coin remains poised between her forefingers for spinning and after a long beat, she confesses—

"There must be a penalty. But I don't remember what it's meant to be. Would you like to suggest one?"

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